Today is the day after my father-in-law’s death.

The day after is a day overwrought with emotions.

Much of my family, the family to which I married into, are either already in New York/New Jersey. If they are not there they are making plans to get there.

I, on the other hand, am here.

My job is to research any information that the family needs in order to make plans.

I very much want to go back East. I want to support my husband and our family.

However, I also want to stay home with our children.

My husband does not want the children, especially the boys, to fly back East. They have so many school related commitments here. We would be gone for an unknown period of time.

I know that he is making the very best decision for them.  I am certain that my father-in-law would have felt the same.

My father-in-law worked so hard in his life to make sure that he provided all that he could. He thought school was very important. He took great pride in his eldest child, my husband, for completing his college education.

He would not have wanted anything, even his death, to pull the boys from that trajectory.

Tonight I shall see if I can change my husband’s mind so that I can be by his side.