What does that mean to be Fearlessly Authentic?
Am I not fearlessly authentic?
If we were to have a conversation, you will find that I am very authentic.
If we had a chat via text, Facebook, messenger, etc. you will also find that I am authentically me.
However, that has not transferred to the blog/website. Do not get me wrong…
I only write about what I believe in.
But it is more than that… Being fearlessly authentic … it is the fearless part that is missing.
It used to be here… just look at Out of the Almost Vegan Closet…. just free-flowing thoughts about labels, my mom. my dad and my doctor (plus a hint at an F-bomb).
In The Many Faces of Sisterhood, I did not worry that my sister by blood would get insulted. I did not worry about my sisters-in-law or anyone else.
I wrote my free-flowing thoughts and feelings.
People related to it, they liked it.
I mean, you can’t really tell from the blog comments as very few people commented but they were inboxing me on the daily.
Then there were many other posts… some that caused the closest people in my life to reach out and ask, “Did I do something to upset you?” or “Are you mad at me?”
Oftentimes, these posts were not even about them BUT something was happening…
People were beginning to recognize their own behaviors when I wrote about my feelings and observations.
People recognized themselves when I was fearlessly open.
But then, I began to worry that my clients would think that I was writing about them.
I began to worry that I would not be seen as a professional.
I began to worry that people should think that I always have my shit together. But you know what?
I am a real person with real feelings. I am a real person who does not always do everything “right”.
Why should people not see that side of me?
I am authentic in all of my work with my clients.
It actually makes me super empathetic.
They know that I have struggles. The appreciation of my sharing has been expressed.
They know it is OK to falter sometimes.
They know that it is what you do next that makes the difference.
My clients also made me realize that they know that I would never share their secrets.
I never share PHI (Protected Health Information).
My observations of what I see in the world around me are in my thoughts all of the time.
If you were in conversation with me about any of these subjects then you will find that I am fearlessly authentic.
I endeavor to understand the emotional motivators behind everything. I find this so fascinating.
There are so many things to learn when we observe and evaluate the world around us.
Why should I not share this?
It is authentically me…
The problem was never about being authentic.
The real issue was that I was out of alignment with my true purpose.
Living out of alignment is not what I want to be doing.
When you ignore a side of yourself then you are not truly authentic.
When you fall into someone else’s expectations of you then you are not authentic.
The same is true when you fall into what you believe someone’s expectations of you are.
It is time to find myself again!
I had felt unsure of how to balance the professional me with the personal me but the fact is that they are all me.
I had this idea in my head of how I “should” present myself. This persona.
My entrepreneurial readers know exactly what I am talking about.
It is the idea that all the “gurus” tell you when you answer their intake forms, quizzes, and similar.
The ones that do not really know me.
Well, I say “F *** it” because guess what?
- I curse, sometimes.
- I get mad, sometimes.
- Sometimes I get cranky.
- Sometimes, my feelings get hurt.
- I get sad sometimes.
Writing about it helps me to move from absorbing it all into letting it all out in a healthy (and *hopefully* helpful) way.
I am a healer who needs to heal.
It is time for me to get back to basics.
When I started this blog it was exclusively my musings.
I lost that for a long time and with it I also lost my passion for blogging. However, that is now in the past.
I am a healer who loves writing.
I love to provide info on so many things.
- Brain Health
- Emotional Health
- Natural Remedies
- Nutrition and Recipes
- Sexual Health
- Sleep Health
- Weight Loss & Blood Sugar Control
I am excited to share my reflections, random thoughts, and musings.
Let’s get started again.
Are you ready?
Elise Ho, Ph.D., D.N.Psy
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P.S. That image of me at the beginning of this post is HUGE. Sorry about that… it is a little (or totally) obnoxious.
At first, I tried to play around with it to get it smaller but I couldn’t get it figured out. Then I messaged my web guy for help.
Finally, I said F*** it!
I published it… it’s all about progress, not perfection.
If I sit here and wait for perfect then time goes on and nothing gets done… so thanks for scrolling past that and reading all the way to here.
I appreciate it. <3